thatswhatevesaid: Love in 50 shades or less

I’m not usually one to feel so strongly about the plethora of hues, tones, tints, and shades of ‘Grey,’ but this paint palette box-office-blow-out-film reminded me of why it is so vital, as a Christian, to keep God in the forefront of my life. Though 50 Shades of Grey is just a movie, it struck me how much my connection with God can be damaged by giving into some of the world’s simplest ‘pleasures.’ It is only by God that I seek purity and good in my life; especially in my spiritual and romantic relationships.

All 50 shades of it.

As I have pursued and nurtured my own connection with God, I’ve realized that the purest form of love is through Him.  To keep this connection strong, I must be able to recognize the things of this world that can taint and cause spiritual anguish. Thus, I will have to continually guard myself from these things, and keep my faith in check (God’s like, duh).

Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God’s holy people. —Ephesians 5:1-3

Out of the love that I have for God and the value that I hold for my own soul, I will be staying far away from any sorts of ‘Grey.’ Grey will simply be, just grey and not a 49th shade more. For this reason, I’m so proud of myself for consciously guarding my spiritual well-being, and mindfully living in a Christ-like way.

23 Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. 24 Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. 25 Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. 26 Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. 27 Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil. —Proverbs 4:23-27

And for the sake of Valentine’s Day…

The most beautiful thing about the Christian faith is that it is anchored and defined by love.  Jesus Christ, sent by God the Father, represents the mortal archetype of perfect and everlasting love that God deeply feels for his creation.  The idea that Christ laid down his own life for the wrongdoings of humanity is in its truest form, the most wonderful and epic demonstrations of love that will ever be. **roll the credits and cue the music**

In short, God loves you, me, him, and her far too much to be compromised by the impurities of the world. There will be trials and obstacles everywhere in life…

Even in those grey areas.

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thatswhatevesaid: about being a wallflower

A wallflower, by definition, is a person who has no one to dance with or feels shy, excluded, or awkward at a party.

Since the birth of this wonderful year that is 2015, I haven’t been the same…(perhaps a little shy, awkward or sometimes excluded…)

God has truly engulfed my day-to-day habits, my thoughts, my speech, my heart, and MY LIFE.  It’s wonderful, glorious, overwhelming, cool, ridiculous, outrageous, and just an indescribable feeling of bigness.  This euphoric joy inside of me is bursting from the seams of my soul, and I’m discovering this beautiful masterpiece that God has created within me! My relationship with God is so darn magical it doesn’t even make sense!

With that being said, what I’ve recently discovered is that not making sense of yourself and going on about the good Lord Jesus Christ, doesn’t get you very far. I’ve noticed this especially with my peers, co-workers, or people who aren’t familiar with Jesus or the Christian faith. Through my twenty years of living experience (and only twenty), I’ve noticed that once the topic of God is brought into a conversation, it actually demotes you from ever seeing the light of ‘cool’ again.

In the Bible it explains how the world views disciples. It says,

18 “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. 19 If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you. 20 Remember what I told you: ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’[a] If they persecuted me, they will persecute you also. If they obeyed my teaching, they will obey yours also. 21 They will treat you this way because of my name, for they do not know the one who sent me.  — John 15:18-21 (NIV)

To break it down I’ve realized that the closer that I get to God, the further away the world pushes me.  This leads to the idea that I’ll never be widely accepted, understood, or liked by most people of the world.  John 15:18-21 was no joke, people.

Being a Christian automatically makes you a wallflower of society, who has no one to dance with, and someone who will always feel SUPER awkward at parties. Being a messenger of Christ is not acceptable so, say goodbye because the worldly cool group just nudged you out of the way with their cold shoulders. **oh no, say it ain’t so**

I never, and I mean NEVER wanted to be someone who would get under people’s skin; I wanted to be someone who was liked, understood, and valued like everyone else. But, since I began this blog, I’ve transformed in my faith.  I’ve been incredibly blessed, and my life has changed tremendously.  God has formed me into a strong and beautifully clothed image of strength and dignity (Proverbs 31:25), and there is something so wonderful and inspiring about this accomplishment.  Without God I would have missed out on all of this.

Though I have been personally singled out, misunderstood, and disrespected for being a Christian, it’s truly all worth it for the delight that I have found in Jesus Christ!

I think this is the way Christian life is meant to be.  I believe God wants us to be ambassadors of His great name, and walk in the world as He once did. Jesus wasn’t accepted by everyone and he wasn’t the most popular; and as a follower of Christ, I’ll have to remember that the world and people won’t always accept me or God, whom I stand for. And….that’s okay.

20 I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.  — Galatians 2:20

I guess I’m just a wallflower who has no one to dance with…
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I am blessed…

I am so blessed. I am blessed to sleep for 4 hours at a time.  I’m blessed that I have a brother at home who is completely himself. I am blessed because I have a job that allows me to contribute to my responsibilities and wants in life. I am blessed because I have parents that put up with me. I am blessed because I never have to worry about food, clothing,  and water; it’s all at my fingertips. I am blessed because I have a man in my life that loves me. I am blessed because I have friends that add joy to my life. I am blessed because I have choices and decisions that add excitement to my life. I am blessed because I have air to breathe and life to live. I am blessed because I have legs, arms, a brain, and a body. I am blessed because I am beautiful. I am blessed because I can talk freely about my faith.                    

I am blessed because I have God.

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